Hard Month

August is coming up and it is a hard month on me starting off August 5th will be 5 years since my dad passed which stills feels like yesterday when it happened. We buried him the 9th on my mom and dads anniversary but my mom wanted that way. August 29th is my birthday which is not the same since my dad passed and I hate the fact that I'm getting really old. The bright side of this is I have Shanna and Kristi now which makes it better. The 20th we are going to see Green Day is Dallas and getting a hotel room afterwords should be tons of fun then the 22nd is Shanna's birthday and I hope I give her the best present ever which is me plus some other stuff. I love her so much I hope the first of the year I will be able to afford a rind a propose soon and hopes she says YES. I can't believe that the 14th we will be back together for six months. I never should have lost her but I'm a dumb ass and didn't realize she wanted me back but we needed the break and things worked out in the long run. There are still gone and I miss the so much I want them back here with me right now. Wrestling is cool I guess I have a couple matches that should be good coming up I think after the first of the year I'm slowing down wrestling is getting too how do I say this .....full of crap I love wrestling but after a while it gets tiring. Work is getting better I'm getting another raise in September and probably more then that if I move departments I'm having fun but if I can't get more money then I'm getting a new job another thing that will happen at the first of the year. I want to be able to support Shanna and Kristi on my own get married and get a house so we can be a real family. Until then I will still help Shanna in anyway I can with love money and trust. I have rambled on about a lot now I must go to bed so I can go to work in the morning take care all well the one person that reads this my sweet angel Shanna. I miss you so much and love you tons.